Going Back To The Beginning
Friday, December 24, 2010 at 12:45AM Since my last post my location, lifestyle, and state of mind has changed dramatically. I crossed through the flat grasslands of Kansas with its unrelenting winds and mind-numbing sparseness and found myself suddenly at the base of the base of the Rockies - Colorado's Front Range. I've spent the last month in Boulder. The approaching winter forced me to make a decision - continue biking through the winter amidst the desolate and treacherous Rockies or embrace a (temporarily) stationary life and begin my westward journey again in the Spring? Each option had it's benefits. Continuing biking would preserve the continuity of my project - I'd see the less-understood side of agriculture - winter production. I'd also avoid having to face issues like "where am I going to live?" and "how am I going to feed myself?". However, money was running low - I had originally planned on finishing my trip by Thanksgiving, yet here I am, a little over half-way done and it's late-December. My last few days of biking as I approached Denver were less than enjoyable, with below-freezing night (and sometimes day) temperatures, high winds, and increasing traffic. If this was a taste of what winter would be like, it was enough to convince me to hide out for the winter.
Like I've mentioned before, a traveling lifestyle brings amazing hospitality from strangers - however, fewer people are inclined to host someone who is idle for an entire season. So, I'd have to find a job. The first week or so in Boulder was really frustrating for me. I felt stagnant. I was used to always moving, always learning, always meeting new people and feeling like i was doing something with my life. Yet suddenly I was stationary, sleeping on a friend's couch, and glued to my computer all day sending endless emails out in search of a job and an apartment and getting no response. I started to think that maybe I'd be forced to keep moving after all. I was almost getting desperate enough to start applying for architecture jobs (God forbid I do something I'm actually qualified for). However, I was concerned about losing the momentum I've built up along my travels. I don't want to have two separate journeys - NYC to CO and CO to CA. Even if I am stationary for five or six months I still want to be progressing in my goals to learn about agriculture and come to some sort of conclusion about food ethics. Colorado is actually a great place to spend the winter and continue my investigations in a more stationary way. The University of Colorado at Fort Collins is a huge powerhouse in the academic world of agriculture and is less than an hour's drive from Boulder. One thing I've found in my travels is that everyone, no matter if they support conventional, large, small, or organic farming, has their own set of facts and statistics that they lean on to support their perspective. Sometimes I feel like a tennis ball being swatted from one side of the agricultural debate to the other - without any background in ag I can only listen to what these farmers tell me and take what they say at face value. But what am I supposed to think when I get contrasting information? I stay at an organic farm that tells me pesticides used by conventional farms are contributing to global warming and soil degradation and then I stay at a conventional farm that tells me that organic farms actually have far larger carbon footprints. I think it's time for me to do some research of my own and try to poke holes in some of these arguments if I can. Colorado has an interesting dichotomy going on as it has a large population of conventional farmers (for example, there's a huge corn-fed beef industry here) as well as being home to some of the most progressive, eco-savvy people you could find. I think it's the perfect place to stop and get to the bottom of some of these issues.
So, I'll be spending the winter in Boulder researching and working like a dog to save up money for the remainder of my trip. I'll be working at an Italian restaurant which sources a substantial amount of its ingredients from local, sustainable farms - it will be interesting to see this aspect of the food world and talk with the owner and chefs about their perspective on what we should eat. However, I'm a good Alaskan girl and can't resist these gorgeous powdery slopes that surround me, so I'll also be working as a ski instructor at Eldora Mountain Resort.
As you've probably noticed, there are quite a few gaps in my journals, so while I'm in Boulder I'll be working to document my experiences thus-far as well as relay any insights I have while working at the restaurant, interviewing local farmers, and doing my own supplementary research. I've been a nomad for the last five months, but come January I will have my own apartment, a job, and a somewhat structured lifestyle. In a way, those things totally freak me out. But, I'm actually looking forward to it, but am also glad that I have the continuation of my journey to look forward to. I'm not settling down yet!
Right now, however, I'm on the plane back to New York City to spend the holidays with family at my sister's home. In a few minutes I'll be back where this whole thing started. How crazy to think that in a matter of a few hours I've re-traced the distance that took me four months to travel on my bike. It was a surreal feeling to fly over those patchwork fields of Colorado and Kansas, imagining myself biking through them only a month ago. Already that lifestyle feels so far away. I think about what I've learned since I left New York - am I a different person now? What have I actually learned? There's a temptation here to get overly dramatic, and I think I'll bypass that. I've definitely learned a lot though - about people, about food, about this country - but I'm not sure exactly what my conclusion is yet. Good thing I'm only half-way done and still have at least 2,000 miles left in which to organize my thoughts and make up my mind!
